All my life I sought the beloved
The beloved who
Will accept me completely
Love me unconditionally
With whom I feel safe
Who did not make me feel guilty
With whom I could be me
With whom I could share my light
Who would embrace my darkness
Who hugged me tightly on the darkest of nights
Who let me fly free on the brightest of days
Who spread her wings on top of me when storms were around
Who sat by my side quietly when I chose to sulk, withdraw, and not to speak
Who danced and laughed wildly with me
Who held my hands in quiet walks
Who never judged me
Who did not walk away when I messed up
Who did not ask why
For whom I was a mystery and not a puzzle to be solved
The one who was happy in my happiness
The one who set me free, so I came back to her
The one who did not try to own me, but I was hers, tied by a delicate silken thread
To the one, who I did not have to prove my love to
With whom my eyes, tears, and silence spoke
This beloved eluded me
Till I understood that I was that deer crazily seeking musk
And carrying it within
Till I understood, that I was the one, I was seeking
And my beloved was the divine source from where I came, and to where I would return
And if this source blessed me, I will become this beloved for someone
And one day, such a beloved would embrace me
This is the last poem of the book
And, my wish is that may love find you
May you be love
The blessings of Baba Bulle Shah
Jaa tujhe ishq ho jaaye
For when I am completely destroyed in love, all labels, and all identities die
And in this dying, I am reborn…..
This book emerged in one such dying
So it is now